^ Where Have I Been ? ^

OMG!! I haven been blogging for more than 2 months le!!! Haiz.. Damn tight with my own schedule sia.. Gotta work la.. Gotta study la.. Gotta spend time with family la.. Hahaha..

Actually I've wrote a blog on how I've celebrated my bday de.. But then tat night I 'sway' lor.. Stupid blog site got prob.. Then I din save as draft.. Then watever i've type was gone in juz 1 SEC!!!! Whahaha.. Kinda sad.. But I was more pissed la.. Hehe.. Then nv blog.. TIL NOW!!!! N tat was like so long time ago le lor.. Hehe..

Anyway, soooooo much things have happened in the past 2 mths.. I tink I shan't tok abt my personal stuffs in this blog.. Coz it's damn long and I have so much things to tok abt it.. Hehe.. Look out for the nx blog ya?? Provided I got the time to write abt it also la.. Keke..

SO!! Wat have I been doing?? Where have I been le?? Same lor.. Work, study and home.. Wkends free then go gai gai lor.. Whahaha.. Boring ya?? Then only great thing tat I've done during these 2 mths was........ I WENT TO TIOMAN!!! Went tanning and now I'm a bit 'orh orh' le.. But I tink I look better when I'm more tan ya?? Hehe.. No longer the 'bai zhan ji' cum sick ger look.. I look like a zombie when I'm fair lor.. Hee.. This trip is so meaningful to me.. Who did I go with??? Frenz lor.. Not with bf or guy hor.. Hehe.. Cannot mention names here la coz it's a sensitive issue.. Haha.. If 2 person happens to see or read this, then they'll be unhappy or pissed as 1 of them duno the truth and the other was protesting when I've made up my mind for this short runaway.. Haha.. Or maybe only 1 person will be mad and unhappy la.. I've enjoyed myself quite a lot but it was also spoilt by someone la.. Haiz.. But there are still really happy and fun thing like i did snorkelling and guess wat??? Those fishes are juz right in front of me leh.. Sometimes, they r juz beside me when I keep still.. So cute and I tell u lor, underwater world is soooooooo beautiful.. Hmmm.. I'm missing tat place le, even though it's a little bit 'lok kok',, Haha.. Maybe I'll go for scuba-diving when I have the opportunity ba.. It was a really short breakfree for me from my probs.. I know running away doesn't helps or solve my probs but I juz wan myself to be happier and prob-free at tat moment.. This trip makes me realise so much things tat I've missed out for the past 3 yrs.. Like say my freedom?? Some really important ppl in my life like my family and frenz??

I've seen the most noble thing tat my mum has ever done for me recently.. Was rather touched by her way of protecting me.. I only realised tat she loves me so much from 1 cruel incident tat broke her heart so much tat I can sense and feel her pain.. It's true tat sorry is the hardest word to say.. I really wanted to say sorry to her even though it wasn't my fault or me who broke her heart.. 'Mum, I'm sorry..' *Oh no!! This is making me going emo.. Whahaha.. Ok SKIP!*

Friendship is something tat is more important than BGR.. But it's human's nature to overlook it once they're in love.. And as time goes by, u'll keep away from ur frenz as u're so engross and focus on ur partner.. Tat is wat happen to most ppl and it's a common mistake made.. Anyway, ppl dun realise a lot of things til they've been thru it personally.. But tat's life la.. If u chose not to learn things the simple way, then go for the hard one lor.. =)

Up to date, I tink this is the hardest lesson tat I ever had.. But it was well-taught and I've grown so much from it ya?? Really learning it thru the hardest way but it was all worthwhile after all.. I'm juz like a slping beauty who slps for more than 3 long yrs.. Most of the ppl felt tat I was blinded and some even ask me if I got tio 'gong tao'.. Haha.. Well I'm not lor.. And I'm really fine.. No matter wat, I'll take care of myself.. This I'll promise those who are still worried for me.. I really grow up le la.. Whahaha.. Stop treating me like a baby ya?? I know wat is best for me de..

I wanna thank those ppl who have been there 4 me all these while.. 1st person tat comes into my mind, Yvanna.. Thank u so much for ur support all these while.. Thanx for always encouraging me to go for wat i wan and believing tat watever decisions I've made, it's right and the best.. I know some times u felt like slapping me and shake me hard enuff to wake me up from my dreams but u know tat only I have the key and alarm clock to wake myself up.. I'm really touched and is really grateful to have known u.. I guess at a pt of time u felt like giving me up ya?? But in the end u din.. And luckily u din.. Whahaha.. Coz I'll be so lost w/o u.. *getting mushy le* Hee..

Nx will be this group of special frenz tat I've known only for barely 1.5 months.. They have shown me the true meaning of 'tat's wat frenz r 4' theory.. U guys rawk!! Love u all so much too.. Really had so much fun whenever we're together.. Even though some times all of u may be 'a little' problematic la.. But after all, still ok la.. Not bad lor.. And pls dun turn me into an Auntie Agony anymore.. Coz I hate it!!! Hahaha.. I'm in difficult positions at time and I'm EMO!!! If u got me affected, I'll cry de lor.. Hehe.. A big thank u to u guys!!

As for L, I know u love me a lot.. But I hope u'll remember wat I've told u lor.. I guess u'll find tat special someone one day de.. Dun give up ok?? Like I've said, I wan something tat will last and not getting ourselves into shit and felt broken at the end of the day.. Dun love a person who is not worth it ok?? Frenz 4eva..

Actually I've soooo much things to say u know?? But then I tink everytime when I got the time to blog hor, it will be quite some time le.. Then got a lot of things happen but duno how to spell it out.. And everytime ending up typing a long and boring blog.. Whahaha.. Tink ppl also not interested to read sia.. Haha.. Sadz.. Anyway, like almost nobody knows abt my blog site.. *Faintz*

Well, shall call it a day.. This blog very long le.. Later cannot post again I'll Kill Myself!!! Shall elaborate more on my lastest situation and share with u guys some of my tots and feelings.. =)

0047HRS
14/10/2006

*P/S : Friday the 13th October is over le.. Haha.. Today I was heng in the morning then 'sway' at night lor.. Rush my work like mad and still cant finish!! Whahaha.. I tot I'll be fine de wor.. Who knows tat I'm a 'sway cheng'!! But nvm la.. Now over le, jiu hao lor.. =P